Saturday, July 25, 2009

Is this really happening??

I am eleven days overdue. I am not in labor. I am barely even having any contractions today. It is almost August. I am starting to get discouraged once again. I cannot believe this is happening, or not happening...depending on how you look at it. I can't concentrate on anything. I'm trying to get my homework done because it is due on Saturday (next week) and at the rate I am going, I may be in the hospital at that point. But I can't seem to focus enough to get it done. I am not as sick to my stomach today, so that is at least positive. I am having a contraction right now, but it doesn't mean anything. None of it means anything. This is absolutely ridiculous. I can't believe how frustrating this is.

I went and got my hair done this morning at my sister-in-law's, so that was nice. Unfortunately, I killed a prairie chicken on the way there. Poor thing went bouncing off my bumper into the ditch like a feathery football. I felt terrible, but I was doing 80 km/hr on the gravel, and even though I saw it coming I didn't think swerving or slamming on the breaks was the best idea. I thought of stopping after, but I knew that if it was still alive and suffering I would not have the stomach to do anything about it.

A few minutes ago Cody was on my bed looking at a magazine and he saw an ad for a restaurant, that had a bottle of Coke in the picture. He asked if it was Pepsi and I said no, it was Coke, or Coca-Cola. He asked me how come it is called Coca Cola. I told him that's just what it's called, just like Pepsi is Pepsi Cola. He said, "Do I like Pepsi Cola?" I said yes and he said, "Does it give me a buzz?" I laughed. Where does he come up with these things??

Anyway, looks like I better go. Jamie just got up and Cody is kind of out of sorts. He just hit his head on something and he is reacting overly emotionally. He is very tired today, after his many misadventures at 6:30 a.m. today. I don't have much else to say anyway, because I will just come back to the same things again. I don't want to do anything now except for have this baby, and something tells me it could be several days yet before that happens. I am still in disbelief about this entire situation. I guess that's it for now.

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