Tuesday, January 18, 2011

Obstacles

I broke my toe yesterday. It is hard for me not to wonder what obstacle will be thrown my way yet. It kept me awake much of the night. I can't walk on it completely properly, though I don't have to limp. It's more like I walk on the side of my foot, with my toes not touching the ground. That's not that big of a deal, right? It is when you're trying to do a workout. The good news is, today I get to do my workout in the absence of my kids. The older two are going to the farm to hang out with their cousins and after I drop them off I will come home, tuck in Micah for his nap, and voila. I am alone. I can't tell you how badly I need that right now. We seem to be in one of those difficult stretches for some reason. I don't know if it's because of the kids or if somehow it's because of me. Maybe they sense my burnout. Maybe having their mother in a bad mood every single day from being woken up at ungodly hours in the morning by screaming and fighting boys causes them to act even worse. I don't know. Jamie just turned three, and unfortunately, he still thinks the most effective way to express himself when someone takes his toy or offends him in any way is to scream or burst into crying. He is in a time out as we speak for one such moment. I can't handle the screaming. It makes me want to scream too. So now I am trying to survive the morning without collapsing or having a tantrum myself. By lunch time I will be home free. I can't wait. I need the space so badly.

Anyway, I'm off for now.

1 comment:

Heidi said...

Did you fall off the ridge poll of the shed?
I hope you get better soon!
btw I love the pics of the boys haircuts in the next entry. Especially of Jamie getting sprayed with water! They are such cute boys!