Friday, April 15, 2011

It's A New Day

Friday has arrived at last, and I am laying in my bed with my two kitties, very tired. I went on a road trip yesterday and visited some friends, and it was very nice. I left my older two boys with one of their aunties and Micah and I headed off for a three hour drive and a four and a half hour visit, and then we did our three hour return drive. It was really nice to just focus on Micah for once, as I don't get very much one-on-one time with him. The drive was quiet for the most part, and though I missed my older monkeys, the silence was so refreshing. Micah is still in that very sweet and innocent stage, so mostly he wandered around while I visited and also cuddled with me every few minutes. He doesn't like to stray too far from me when we're not home. Even at home he is that way, come to think of it.

Yesterday's blog post was sort of depressing and I feel like I need to apologize for it. It was honest, and written in a moment when I was, well, to quote Anne Shirley, "in the depths of despair". I can't even say whether I feel better today or not, but I am hoping to approach my day a little differently. I'm not sure what that is going to look like yet, as I am not really feeling well this morning, but maybe God will inspire me with some kind of brilliant idea to help me with the boys today.

Just to clarify, I do not think of my boys as "bad boys". I just think they are incredibly busy, and yes, they do a lot of stuff that they are not supposed to whenever we are not looking, and it really is frustrating. Maybe more like maddening and downright exasperating. But they are good boys and I love them all to pieces. I think the real problem here is that I am burnt out. I need to find a way to recharge.

Anyway, Micah is calling me now in the monitor, and I just finished having a little chat with the other two on my bed. I hope to have a positive day with them today. We'll see how it goes. So far, Jamie is already drinking chocolate syrup out of the fridge. Sigh. But it's Friday. I will do what is necessary to make it through the day without disaster. Hopefully that will be possible. I'm off for now.

1 comment:

Jo said...

DO you ever start your day with the boys reading a Bible devotion geared to them? Just a short page. I always found inviting God into our day brought peace. Just a thought, now I must get off the computer and get my day roaring!