Thursday, August 4, 2011

The end of a year.

Exactly one year ago today, in this moment, I was at the emergency room. This was the day I fell off my horse, Sasha, and broke my right wrist and my right ankle, and sprained my left wrist...not to mention the poison ivy I landed in. It was a rough time for me and my family, as I was pretty much unable to do anything for a while. Our year has been a difficult one with a lot of heartache and trials. I guess it started in June of last year when our dear Jamie was so very sick. Either way, today I have been thinking a bit about the anniversary of my fall. I guess what I want is for today to be the end of a really bad year (and a bit) and the start of something full of life, blessings, hope, peace, and health. That's a pretty tall order, I guess, but I'm putting it out there anyway. I know God is more than able to do more than I ask or imagine. Where I struggle is in believing that He will. But I have decided to ask anyway, and He can decide what is right for me and my family. I do hope He will choose to bless us this coming year. I don't feel like I can take any more trials, and it makes me feel weak and faithless. Perhaps I am. Difficult times can bring out the best in us, or the worst. I can't honestly say what is coming out in me. I feel like a toy whose battery is dying and I can't function the way I was intended to anymore. I have no idea how to recharge.

So, may this be the end of my bad year and the beginning of something truly divine. I am now off to work on my book. Micah is sleeping soundly and the other two are in bed, but very loudly playing and hypering in there. I will probably have to issue threats soon. Still, I will enjoy the semi-peace of the moment and hopefully have some inspiration. Tomorrow is bound to be a long day, with Mike gone most of the day for appointments. I'm off for now. But I have to post these few pictures of my sweeties from this evening first.
Cody & Jamie going down the slide together.

Micah trying out the "big boy swing". 

All three enjoying the swings together.

Micah in his "new" baby swing. (Bought last year but we didn't put it up due to circumstances. Mike put it up tonight.)

Maybelline, at my sister's place. I haven't seen her for a month. She's looking beautiful, I think!

And my Sasha. Not the best picture, but she has put on a lot of weight, which is a good thing for her! I hope to ride her some time in the next month.

1 comment:

Heidi said...

I am believing with you Cheryl... That you will be surprised by JOY! And that this year is the best yet!
You are amazing and I am thankful that you've made it through this crazy, awful year.
All God's promises are yes and amen.